Question #1: Did you ever fight for anything?
Did you ever go after something you wanted, something you wanted so bad you could smell it? Something you dreamt about, something you saw and felt all the time but didn't have?
How about passing up on something because of something you could fight for, but probably won't?
I think its time to fight for something.
For no reason other than the fact you don't have an obvious answer to question #1.